Fragility

Father of mine, I relied on the fragility of prayer. 
Gracely kneelt bowing before you for the the tears were uncotrollable then
Cleansed your body with the pain of my memories
Kissed your porcelain skin pleading as before when there was no need to
I asked for you now to rid me of all the blessings you punished me with
May I ask why if it did assist with the pain?
Shall I complain if it persuaded you to answer me?
If it was your will I must endure my destiny

As always I surrender to ease of waiting for an answer ,motionless 
Silently grasping the rosary intertwined along with the cords engulfed in morphine and my fingers
Reciting your name please hear me say 
Father, I offer myself to you
For you to heal me
For you to make me useful 
wherever you wish for that to be

Father of mine, I can solely rely on prayer
Awaiting for a miracle if it so be 
Make it be mine as I lay in bed 
Let me rise before you without tears streaming onto your bare feet
If it were my will 
I wouldn't show you that I have a reason to cry... for you not to give me another

And Romeo Rakuten Gothic Lolita Dress Review

Hello Everyone, I decided to make a review on an And Romeo dress I received a few months ago. First of all, I did not purchase the dress myself, it was actually a gift from my boyfriend. So this is the dress....

The dress looks almost the same in person except for the puffiness of the dress because of course a petticoat is needed. As the website mentions the collar is detachable and the sleeves as well. Also, the waist ties are detachable. The bows are not detachable and there is many of them but I still think the dress is lovely. The website also mentions that the dress is 100% cotton & chiffon, I can tell you that the dress is heavy and appears to be of good quality. I apologize that I have no other dress to compare it to and this is my first Lolita style dress. The lace is not also soft but it does not look cheap either and it is not scratchy. The dress has no lining but I don't think it needs it because it is thick enough. The dress is true to color and the lace appears darker than the dress itself. 

This is the site in Japanese http://item.rakuten.co.jp/auc-andromeo/14_1-bb/

And this is the English page to order internationally http://global.rakuten.com/en/store/auc-andromeo/item/14_1-bb/

As I mentioned before I received it as gift. My boyfriend bought it through the Japanese website and received the package in Japan. Thus, I can not offer much information on postage but if you purchase internationally, most shipping costs are around 20 dollars. The postage is much cheaper for Japanese customers and my boyfriend said he received his package in about 2 days. The dress was on sale and it cost around 80 dollars. Obviously this is not brand name or top quality Lolita which go around for about 300 dollars. However for the price it is very detailed and thick. I actually love it very much. The only issue I see is that it is busy with all the ruffles and bows. This dress is also a free size dress, you can see the measurements on the website. It fits me well but at times I wish it was tighter. It has a zipper on the back and waist ties. As you can tell it also has shirring in the front for those who need it. So it does have stretch to it. This is a picture of me wearing the dress. I am around 107 pounds and I am 5'2 in height. The dress hits just above the knee.

Overall I love the dress and can't wait to wear it soon. Do purchase from And Romeo due to their quality and range of dresses and separates. Oh and don't forget the amazing price. I give it a 5/5, the only issue being too many bows.

 If you want to see more pictures of the dress or want more information about And Romeo or Lolita free feel to comment. Also, if you want to be friends or chat please contact me. Thank you for reading

Garden of Dreams

Garden of dreams

The water droplets gathered by the insecure cupping of your hands fall. That which is left is not enough to quench my thirst. I lick off the remaining escaping droplets. Running away down your arms. Willingly collapsing on the pavement. Seeping in forth giving identity as the sunlight dries ridding their existence if it were so simple...

From the vines disposed to shelter the unprotected walls. You pick a minute and faded berry. Meant to sate my hunger. Clenching my lips refusing your concern. My fingertips freely bask streaming through the glistening water. I capture an auburn petal attached to the fountain. Still... There where the flower I handed to you was torn apart. It was a delicate lie. As a gullible child I had to believe in you. I grasped the scent of another fragrant rose as if it had ever grown in my garden. And if it did was it even there anymore? While I stroll along the rose outlined pathway. I let the flowers we cultivated stroke my bare skin. They remind me of your longing embrace. In your arms I felt protected. Buried my face into your chest. This is how I would remain oblivious to the decaying garden. It was that simple...for you...

To leave me alone besides the wilted flowers. Asking me to attempt to rebuild my garden out of dead matter. Where is the cupping of your hands? Insecure as it may be it sustained me. The dim berry faintly tainted my lips. Bringing me life and hope. How beautiful was the lie. Kneeling before the observant stone angel. The water droplets sacrificing quietly in order to not startle the buds nourishing on a renounced dream.